Fail = Die

I know it is hard and a lot of people failed to do it but I simply could not lose in this case. I will need to fight on again and again. I can not lose. It is my life . It is taking my life. I am serious. I can not look it take my life without doing anything.

I would rather die than lose this fight. I could not afford it.
It is hard but I will die but never accept losing. If lose, my life has no meaning. It is rubbish.
I will never surrender no matter how hard it is.