I definitely need to get rid of useless thinking

I enjoy too much without it. I love the feeling of getting rid of it so much. I could listen to E and make some progress. I can feel that I am improving. I love it.
I feel the development.

I must get rid of it.
Useless thinking I hate it.
Especially it prevents me enormously to learn new things.
Make me useless, handicapped.
Damn it.